I'm a survivor. Are you?
If you were born on or after this date in 1973, you "survived" your biological mother's government-granted right to choose whether you would be born ... or not.
This past Sunday, I was at the Oregon Right to Life Roe v. Wade Memorial Rally with friends from church, my husband, and my three children. An estimated 6,980 other pro-lifers joined us in the cold (but thankfully not rainy) Pioneer Courthouse Square to commemorate those we've lost.
Distracted a bit while trying to keep my children warm and occupied, I couldn't help but think about those who weren't there - who couldn't be there - the 50 million who have died since Roe v. Wade passed in '73. When the bell tolled over the loudspeaker 50 times, one for each million pregnancies terminated, I couldn't stop the tears from streaming down my cheeks. 50 million. It's a staggering number, almost too many to wrap my brain around. Dr. Frank Rosenbloom's speech provided welcome yet astonishing perspective on the matter, indicating that, among other statistics, we would have to fight the war in Iraq for 75 thousand years to account for the number of lives lost to abortion.
Those touched by abortion weighed heavily on my mind. Not just the dead babies, mind you, but the mothers, fathers, grandparents, siblings, teachers - you name it - any person who was (or would have been) connected to the aborted child. It goes to show that abortion's destructive impact on our society is far greater than we can imagine.
I applauded Esther Ripplinger, founder of Oregon's Silent No More, for addressing the crowd in such a personal way; I prayed her story of post-abortive reconciliation and healing would inspire others traumatized by abortion to seek the help they need.
One of the neatest surprises that day was that my parents were there, unbeknownst to me. My husband had taken our youngest daughter for a "look-around" walk, and, amazingly, my mom's friend spotted David in the crowd. It was such a tremendous blessing for me to be able to share the experience of the rally not only with my precious children, but with the two people who took me into their home when I was just three weeks old, the result of an unwanted pregnancy who was desperately wanted by people who couldn't have children of their own. I took a moment to ask God to bless my biological mother for not caving in to any pressure she might have felt, post-Roe v. Wade, to abort me. I could have been one of the 50 million, but thanks be to God, I survived. I'm pretty sure my parents feel the same way. :-)
Perhaps not surprisingly given our "blue" state status, no media other than The Oregonian deemed the event worthy of coverage, and even they had to be "fair and unbiased," running a pro-choice-centric photo with the story. No matter. I know that I know that I know that I know that The Truth is not a matter of democratic vote, to paraphrase Pope Benedict the 16th. The 7,000+ of us who kept vigil that cold Sunday afternoon know that there was a huge rally in Portgland, Oregon, and, more importantly, we know why we were there.
Thursday, January 22, 2009
Sunday, January 4, 2009
Oh Me of Little Faith
My third child turned 6 months on Christmas Eve. Although he was born two and a half weeks early, Noah's development has been right on track; that is, except for one thing - he hadn't rolled over, one of those developmental milestones that usually occurs around four months. I anxiously waited and waited and … it just wasn’t happening.
Now, I heard testimony from eyewitnesses that he rolled from his tummy to his back not once, but twice while I was performing at the Oregon Symphony's Gospel Christmas concert December 13th. When my parents told me what he had done, I was incredulous: “No way! Not while I was gone. He wouldn’t do that to me!” Having recently quit my job to stay home full-time with Noah and his 3-year-old sister, I was supposed to be the one to see these milestones now – not a babysitter, not his grandparents, not his sisters, not his dad – me! And anyway, he had been on my parents’ blow-up mattress, not the floor, and they probably helped him to roll over, so it didn’t count, right?
Over the next several days, I watched the poor kid like a hawk. Every time it looked like he was going to roll over, I grabbed the camera and waited. I spent a lot of time waiting. The more days that passed, the more I determined my parents were exaggerating the alleged incident. I brushed it off as a non-event.
About a week later, my eldest daughter came running into the kitchen from the bedroom where she was playing with her brother. “Mommy, Mommy!” she cried excitedly. “Noah rolled over!” I put down the bottle I was washing, cocked my head, and squinted suspiciously at my daughter. “Are you sure?” I asked. With an excited cadence, she replied, “Yes! He was on the ground with his jungle friends (breath), and then he was grunting a little bit (breath), and then he kind of kicked his leg or something (breath) and then he rolled over onto his tummy!” Scanning my face intently and picking up on my disbelief, Ava let out a deep sigh and closed her eyes purposefully. “Mommy,” she said, opening her eyes again. “He rolled over. I. Am. Not. Lying.”
At this point, I walked back to the bedroom to see if it could possibly be true this time. Sure enough, there was the little guy, drool flowing from his smiling face onto the mat beneath him. He was on his stomach. But, I thought, hadn’t I put him on his tummy to begin with? Hmmm. I wasn’t convinced.
There were more “incidents” over the next couple of days that, conveniently, I didn’t see. The whole thing begged the question – if a baby rolls over in the home and his mother doesn’t see it happen, does the baby really roll over?
One night at dinner, the girls, my husband and I were enjoying our meals when my husband glanced over my shoulder at our son, who was playing quietly on the floor behind me. David nonchalantly mentioned, “He did it again.” “What??!” I shrieked. At this point, everyone knew what “it” meant. They knew I didn’t want to hear about “it” unless I saw “it” for myself. I dropped to Noah’s side on the floor and said, “Honey, did you roll over? I didn’t see it! How come you won’t roll over for me?” He smiled at me and drooled.
The whole thing couldn't have been more unfair. At this point, everyone except me had seen Noah roll over. I wondered if it was logical that all my family members could be wrong about this. I began to accept that I was probably in denial; Noah most likely had rolled over. I just didn’t want to miss the blessed event, so denying it was my coping mechanism. It made me think of Thomas, the doubter, who had been absent when Christ appeared to the apostles after his Resurrection:
“The other disciples kept telling him, "We have seen the Lord!" But he told them, "Unless I see the nail marks in his hands, put my finger into them, and put my hand into his side, I will never believe!" (John 20:25)
Was Thomas jealous of his friends? Frightened to consider the truth? Why didn't he believe them at their word? Sure, a baby rolling over for the first time isn’t on the same playing field as a dead person walking around and appearing to his friends, but it was a big deal in my little world. Our family situation was much different when the girls were babies, and I hadn't seen either of them roll over when it first happened, either. And, frankly, I was too exhausted at the time to care as much as I did now. I wasn't going to miss it this time around, too!
Finally recognizing my lack of faith, I determined to quit being jealous and suspicious of everyone around me who had experienced what I so desperately wanted to see. I decided that it would happen for me when God appointed.
New Year’s Day, we spent time at my aunt’s beautiful home in Damascus. After a wonderful Filipino feast, we sat in the comfy recliners watching one of the football games on television. At least, I think the guys were watching the game. For my part, I was watching my son play, as I had so many times before. Less than five minutes had passed when, sure enough, Noah flipped his little self over and was now on his back, staring up at me.
“Noah!” I exclaimed. “You did it! You rolled over! And Mommy saw it! It’s the first time!” I picked up my son and gave him a big hug as he smiled at me. With my cheek against my son's, I looked with eyes shining over at my husband, who knowingly smiled back at me. “It’s the first time I saw it,” I said.
Now, I heard testimony from eyewitnesses that he rolled from his tummy to his back not once, but twice while I was performing at the Oregon Symphony's Gospel Christmas concert December 13th. When my parents told me what he had done, I was incredulous: “No way! Not while I was gone. He wouldn’t do that to me!” Having recently quit my job to stay home full-time with Noah and his 3-year-old sister, I was supposed to be the one to see these milestones now – not a babysitter, not his grandparents, not his sisters, not his dad – me! And anyway, he had been on my parents’ blow-up mattress, not the floor, and they probably helped him to roll over, so it didn’t count, right?
Over the next several days, I watched the poor kid like a hawk. Every time it looked like he was going to roll over, I grabbed the camera and waited. I spent a lot of time waiting. The more days that passed, the more I determined my parents were exaggerating the alleged incident. I brushed it off as a non-event.
About a week later, my eldest daughter came running into the kitchen from the bedroom where she was playing with her brother. “Mommy, Mommy!” she cried excitedly. “Noah rolled over!” I put down the bottle I was washing, cocked my head, and squinted suspiciously at my daughter. “Are you sure?” I asked. With an excited cadence, she replied, “Yes! He was on the ground with his jungle friends (breath), and then he was grunting a little bit (breath), and then he kind of kicked his leg or something (breath) and then he rolled over onto his tummy!” Scanning my face intently and picking up on my disbelief, Ava let out a deep sigh and closed her eyes purposefully. “Mommy,” she said, opening her eyes again. “He rolled over. I. Am. Not. Lying.”
At this point, I walked back to the bedroom to see if it could possibly be true this time. Sure enough, there was the little guy, drool flowing from his smiling face onto the mat beneath him. He was on his stomach. But, I thought, hadn’t I put him on his tummy to begin with? Hmmm. I wasn’t convinced.
There were more “incidents” over the next couple of days that, conveniently, I didn’t see. The whole thing begged the question – if a baby rolls over in the home and his mother doesn’t see it happen, does the baby really roll over?
One night at dinner, the girls, my husband and I were enjoying our meals when my husband glanced over my shoulder at our son, who was playing quietly on the floor behind me. David nonchalantly mentioned, “He did it again.” “What??!” I shrieked. At this point, everyone knew what “it” meant. They knew I didn’t want to hear about “it” unless I saw “it” for myself. I dropped to Noah’s side on the floor and said, “Honey, did you roll over? I didn’t see it! How come you won’t roll over for me?” He smiled at me and drooled.
The whole thing couldn't have been more unfair. At this point, everyone except me had seen Noah roll over. I wondered if it was logical that all my family members could be wrong about this. I began to accept that I was probably in denial; Noah most likely had rolled over. I just didn’t want to miss the blessed event, so denying it was my coping mechanism. It made me think of Thomas, the doubter, who had been absent when Christ appeared to the apostles after his Resurrection:
“The other disciples kept telling him, "We have seen the Lord!" But he told them, "Unless I see the nail marks in his hands, put my finger into them, and put my hand into his side, I will never believe!" (John 20:25)
Was Thomas jealous of his friends? Frightened to consider the truth? Why didn't he believe them at their word? Sure, a baby rolling over for the first time isn’t on the same playing field as a dead person walking around and appearing to his friends, but it was a big deal in my little world. Our family situation was much different when the girls were babies, and I hadn't seen either of them roll over when it first happened, either. And, frankly, I was too exhausted at the time to care as much as I did now. I wasn't going to miss it this time around, too!
Finally recognizing my lack of faith, I determined to quit being jealous and suspicious of everyone around me who had experienced what I so desperately wanted to see. I decided that it would happen for me when God appointed.
New Year’s Day, we spent time at my aunt’s beautiful home in Damascus. After a wonderful Filipino feast, we sat in the comfy recliners watching one of the football games on television. At least, I think the guys were watching the game. For my part, I was watching my son play, as I had so many times before. Less than five minutes had passed when, sure enough, Noah flipped his little self over and was now on his back, staring up at me.
“Noah!” I exclaimed. “You did it! You rolled over! And Mommy saw it! It’s the first time!” I picked up my son and gave him a big hug as he smiled at me. With my cheek against my son's, I looked with eyes shining over at my husband, who knowingly smiled back at me. “It’s the first time I saw it,” I said.
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